Somehow

I feel like a total failure today. Fascinating.

Moving On

I am moving on, off the path that leads into muddled darkness, into the field with flowers and no path. I still see the path, feel tempted by the familiarity of it, but the door will never open, and I am never to go that direction. I am to create something new within, that has never before been, because I have never before been ready. I am off the path, laying in the grass, under the sun, feeling the breeze, and resting upon my beloved. She knows my heart, I know hers.

In endings, in beginnings, all a spiral dance of life. I am moving forward from the foundational experience of the year's lesson. I am ready to expand, ready to birth. My soul's womb is seeded and I am growing myself from within.

Birthing into the beyond.

Aho

Respect

I am finding out about respect, and it's the word I've waited for since last year. I've also connected with the word bully. Both are releasing and opening attachments. Powerful words, powerful energies.

And so it is. Blessings.
DS

weaver

my spirit guide is one, within many. he is called weaver. he knows me from my weaving, one of many. i am learning to trust again. and i'm watching the muppets.

Constriction

A fascinating day was had. The number one lesson I learned, do what I can in the moment with who is there, for everyone that came was different than who had said they would come. New combinations of people and their energy. I had to change everything and just did so without struggle because it had to be done. Constant reweaving of what would've been into what was. An interesting day.

Constriction from fear, really can prevent someone from opening into the beauty and truth of an experience.

Time to explore nature and be open. I can, thankfully.

On the Horizon

The Horizon....growing larger every day, getting more clear, as it was before the experience of the past year. I can see clearly now...

What am I seeing?

When I was in my massage training, I knew someday I would be teaching it. I filed away valuable information while watching and learning from the instructor. He was a one-person show who taught all subjects well. I have thought throughout the years since that someday I would open a massage/healing arts school.

The full name of my studio is Heart and Hara Healing Arts Studio. I elected to keep out Healing Arts to simplify and pacify (the local community might have some hairs raised over nothing). In the past 2 days, my vision came again.

The vision came clearly last year, when I was preparing for ownership of the studio, that it would be a massage/yoga/healing arts school. I could see how many I would work with, how the rooms would be used, the flow of the curriculum, and the pacing throughout the year. And somehow in the turmoil and growth of the experience I went through, the vision was clouded, and my pace slowed.

Was it a black snake, trying to dim my light, crawling into my bed and trying to poison me? Was it my own undoing in my effort to do? All....always.

So, now that I feel the vision again, I'm continuing my process of school certification and curriculum development. I feel very confident and competent to run a small school for healing arts, including studies in yoga, massage, goddess and psychic development, the areas of my life that I live. I also have resources in local talents to bring in to expand the experience, as my teacher did in the massage program.

What I feel I am here to do, in the next large phase of my professional growth, is to weave the ancient wisdom of my many paths into a cohesive healing arts certification program in both massage and yoga, a program that would give the participants the language and action of body, mind and spirit healing and maintenance.

So, there it is.

I know what I need to do for the yoga program, and if things go well, I apply for school certification in 2010 and offer a 200-hour RYT program next fall the fall of 2011. I don't know what direction to take for the massage school accreditation, as the routes I've looked into require a bigger and currently existing school program. I'm going to keep looking, and at least I can offer it and the students can get nationally certified because I'll offer a 500+ hour program that will eventually be taken in conjunction with the yoga training for a comprehensive healing arts certification program.

Now, time, yes, time. It's what I need more of. I have the skills, I have the resources, I have studio, and the insight into what is missing and needed. I also have the support and passion.

Ah. it's good to be back to this thought process.

Mahalo

Black Snake

I have a black snake trying to get into my bed. I can't seem to catch it and it's a shifty little bugger, trying to turn into a rabbit when I get close to it.

Who is this snake? What part of me does it represent. Interesting dreams I had last night.

Value Your Piece

I've been hearing "Value Your Piece" all afternoon. I think I'm getting somewhere.

Value. Esteem. Worth. Sacred. Treasure. Priceless.

Value your piece.

Try this for Manifesting during the full moon-
Sat Kriya for 3-5 minutes, then Sing-Whisper-Silence-Whisper Sing Sa-Ta-Na-Ma using the hand/finger positions, finish with 2-however many ONG's you feel guided to express, with your arms open wide at a 45-degree angle, palms facing forward and fingers open wide.

Google what you don't know. Sat Kriya- SaTaNaMa, Ong

Blessings, Sat Nam